Gritty's in Lewiston threw us an amazing benefit last night. It was the most fun I've had since I can remember. For one moment, I wasn't weighed down by everything going on in my life. For just a second, I let myself have a good time without feeling guilty.
It was overwhelming and amazing to see so many people banding together on our (Riker's) behalf. I saw people last night that I haven't seen in years - not to mention all the wonderful strangers that came out to support us. It was incredible.
During the day, Jon and I began the process of looking into houses. This is very difficult because we need one yesterday. When Riker and I come home, we'll need to have a place all ready to move into and it will need to be settled for at least 2 weeks. Obviously this would be stressful under the best of circumstances but is just over the top for us now.
In 100 degree heat, Jon and I looked at modular homes for hours. I think (hope) we can make this happen. We HAVE to make this happen. We found a company that puts complete air filtration systems in our house. If we're going to do this - we need to do it right. This will filter out the moisture and germs in the air. This will help ensure that Riker is in the cleanest environment possible.
Next step is to secure financing - then we can start looking for land and plan our house.
Living in isolation over the 6 months that it takes Riker to recover is daunting to me. However, I am starting to find some comfort in us being in a new home for our new start. I am starting to think about my girls growing up in a new house and playing in a new yard. I am thinking about our cozy Thanksgiving & Christmas - just the 4 of us. It seems too good to be true - Riker might just make it through this. I might get to see Valentine and Riker become the best of friends despite fighting every day :) A new house is begining to represent all of this for me.
30 days ago, I didn't dare dream past today. I honestly didn't think we'd make it through. We're not even 2 months into this ordeal - maybe 1/5th of the way through - but I don't think there is a person left who doesn't think Riker can do this. It feels good to dream about a future again - a future with my whole family together. <3