5 months, 2 weeks, 4 days since diagnosis
62 days away from home
During a diaper change, I notice a "bump" or "bubble" on Riker's stomach. I had to call the clinic and let them know. They didn't sound very concerned but when I offered to take a picture, they jumped at the offer. The bump almost looked like a water drop in the picture.
Apparently, it looked like it could be shingles and they requested we come right in so they could test in. Upon further examination, they were significantly less worried but still "popped" it and sent it for testing.
An infection like shingles would likely kill Riker. She shouldn't be exposed and everyone she's around has either been vaccinated or has already had them. I am scared to death that after all this fighting a little infection could be the end of it.
Any mother with a baby at home worries about every bump, every cough, every rash. I'm not any mother anymore. The bumps, and coughs, and rashes... a change in behavior... it could be our only clue before Riker gets really sick. And if Riker gets sick, she might not make it. At this point, the chances of her getting an infection that kills her are far higher than the possibility that she'll relapse. It's enough to drive me crazy.